Stuff I intend on Buying

I really want this touch screen computer, and Ill have the money to get it soon, but its not in stores anywhere, which makes things difficult, Ill have to apply for a credit card, and blah, blah, blah. But with this computer, Its small, I can carry it around, it has USB ports. Its not to expensive and its freakin awesome, I can upload my photos, music, and videos, and have portable interent.

HELL YAH

Anyways

I cant wait to get paid

-Sincerely Ashleigh Ann

Latest PhotoShoot

These are a few of the most recent photoshoot this month, There will be more, but these things take time, with photographers, and editing, and such. So far they dont seem bad to me, not my best, but we will get there.

Black & White is like a completely different Photo

Sephia, gives off the idea of an older photo

Personally I like them both

? Hmmm ?

-Sincerely Ashleigh Ann

Why, Just a two peice Poem I wrote way back in the day

Why? Why does life have to be one big puzzle? The one mystery that even the best of the best can never solve. Everyday met with more challenges, Everyday dealing with either the past or the present. It seems that the puzzle of life will never be finished, someone is always going to be there to add another piece to the never ending picture, or to simply take one out. A baby born and another death, each one with its very one piece. Something special, something to hold on to, something worth living for. Some people find their piece right away, and they should consider themselves lucky. Some take a bit longer and sadly enough, some never find theirs at all. Each Person has their own personality; their own piece to the puzzle that was considered the very circle in life...


Why must daily thoughts consist of my past, present or future? Why must daily thoughts be confusing, puzzle worthy and dramatic? Why are there murders, robbers, kidnappers, child molesters, perverts and split personalities? Why must it be that without fights and money the survival circle around us would crumble at our feet? Who is god, why is he here and why should we believe? Why is heartbreak so painful and how dose love hurt so much? Well these questions will never be answered because the questions change and answers update so let me break it down. Every human being is self-centered in one or another rather it be looks, career, love or hate, life in general. Life will always be dramatic, confusing and not to mention puzzle worthy because the world will never be figured out, this is because everyone in it has a mind of their own and these minds build and rebuild the world repeatedly like a broken record player. There are murders, robbers, kidnappers, child molesters, perverts and split personalities because some people many people can't handle the weight of the world, some or born this way, maybe dropped on their heads at a rather young age. But no-one is perfect so rather we like it are not these people who are still as human as we will always be here and without fights and money there would be no negotiating, compromising, sports or politics and without money the survival circle would crumble because nothing is ever free even freedom is never free and god is someone or something used who is looked up to in many different formalities used for belief, comfort and because in the end love still hurts and love still cries, freedom isn't free and love is the battlefield.

Hello

Hello again, It is me, As if you didnt know that. Today has generally been a good day so far, Ive taken lots of new photos with my new camera, the photo above being one of them. Thats my 2 year old neice, and shes adorable. I got some cute pictures of this beagle puppy too, her name is marley, see below.

Isnt she adorable? Anyways, So Ive got plans the rest of the weekend, Tonight Im hanging out with some old friends, Tomorrow Im hanging out with Arie, maybe taking her to the river, then on Sunday Ill be hanging out with another friend, possibly going to the river, or hiking to take tons of photos. Sunday Ill be discussing my living situation with a may be roomate. Other then all of that, Im just hanging out, thinking about life.

The changes Im still making, and the new friends, Im basically contemplating everything. Im working on quitting smoking, and so far Im doing quite well. Ive had the same pack for over a week and its still over half full. So Im doing good. Im in the process of making a new outfit for tonight. Oh I hope it turns out well.

I design most of my clothes, and I generally like sewing, just because its something Im good at.

Im actually pretty content with everything outside of my home life right now. Having arie here is a break for me. When she goes home on monday....Nobody knows. Im really excited about how things are going, even if things at home pretty much suck right now. Ive decided to stop worrying about it, Im making good desisons for myself, and Im happy with that. I know Im making my way out of here, and thats enough to keep me going. Im done worrying about all the horrible things I hear, or am subjected to. Im done getting my feelings hurt all the time. Im just ignoring it now, it still hurts, just not as much when you pretend you cant hear them.

Anyways, my plans tonight, may or may not follow through, but I really hope they do, I just got a possible cancel message, and thats uber dissapointing....

Ill keep you posted

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Okay, Im gunna go I guess. Maybe take some more photos, or a nap....Bye

-Sincerely Ashleigh Ann

A New Beginning

Okay, so Currently, my life has had its odds and its ends. But I'm making considerably good progress. In the last 2 or so years, I've moved around allot, and learned some really good lessons. I've made my share of mistakes, but I've done allot of good. I would never want to live by myself in the city ever again, but even still, when Im passing through, Ill buy a bunch of dollar menu cheeseburgers and pass them out to the street kids. Karma, it does exsist.

I recently got back into Washington, I was up in Yachats Oregon studying Auto Mechanics. The program wasnt great, and it wasnt what I thought it would be, I wanted to do auto body detail, not do book work about engines, I just like to paint. I am currently in Darrington, and Im happy here for the time being. Im a nanny during the week, I get paid once a month, and Ive made some new friends that are actually really cool. I got this new camera, thats completely amazing, to expensive, but amazing. I take allot of pictures, and make allot of art, I post allot of blogs, and I write allot of music, and I dance like no other. Its an art form. I also adore Camping. Allot.

Ill admit I was out of place for awhile, I didnt know what was going to happen, where I was going to go, or what I wanted to do. Honestly, I just want to move out on my own, but I dont mind staying in town, I work here, and even thou I dont really hangout with people here, I do have a few friends. The veiw is beautiful, and not very many people I know get to say they have a mountain in their backyard. Ive made better of myself lately. I dont do the stupid things I used to do, and I dont hangout with the losers I once wasted my time with, thats not a nice thing to say, but its true.

Its been pretty lonely, being in a small town, you dont meet very many people, Its hard to find people that are real, that do things besides drink, or do drugs, or drive around the same block 5 billion times. But there isnt any hurry, Some things you just get used to. Take every day as it comes, and leave the past behind you. Things change every second, of every minute of every day. Learn from your mistakes and call it good. No drama, its a good policy.

As for other changes in my life, Im created those changes on my own, and Im trying really hard. Im a total sweetheart, but I did lose myself for a little while a couple months ago. Ive re-found my morals, and my sense of humor, I started writing again, and now I know how much I missed it. I feel like Im a new person, I have prayed, and made better desisons for myself. I've prayed for help, and I think I got it. I wished for something, but it was childish, but still, I hope Ill find it.

My dog Stitches, is literally my best friend, no matter what you do, everytime you come home, shes just as excited to see me as any other time, and loves me no less. However, I do hope that Ill find someone else someday, someone to spend my time with, to care about, to watch movies with, to take tons of photos or random stuff with, to love. Someone who is loyal, and trustworthy, and kind. Thats pretty hard to find, but I can hope.

Anyways, Today Im hanging out with my two year old neice for a little while, thats her in the photo above, then I get the house to myself for a few hours, and that is indeed exciting. Im not sure what Ill do with my day yet, but Ill figure it out. I think Id like to see my water fall again.

Later

-Sincerely Ashleigh Ann